The Devil is in the DETAIL’S!

American people I understand you are ANGRY! DIS-TRUSTFUL! DISGUSTED! AND TIRED! Of big government. But I think that you really need to CALM down and began to really LISTEN to what is being said out here on the campaign trail. STOP! Being so quick to follow behind someone that APPEAR’S to be as angry as you. We have some very ACCOMPLISHED actor’s out here that can PLAY an audience like a fine violin. YES! American has allowed a lot of jobs go across the water’s and YES! people are NOT getting paid enough money. But can you truthfully say that this is something NEW!? Or that this just came about yesterday? The stock market CRASH! has happened OVER AND OVER! And we have survived, our housing market  has grown and it has stagnated but they are still building homes.

Sometimes we are so busy trying to find the FORREST that we miss it because of the TREE’S! We need to work with one another and STOP! ATTACKING! Each other; and what has that gotten us so far? Just more anger and more attack’s we do not live in a bubble, we must deal with other’s not only in our country but abroad.

AND THERE IS NO QUICK FIX ANWER TO THESE PROBLEMS! If there were then they would have been solved years ago. One thing that I have come to realize that MAN CANNOT GOVEN MAN! We get too emotional and start to spew out hateful and destructive language as well as action’s. We get TUNNEL VISION and began to see only what is going on with ourselves instead of realizing that it is MORE THAN US at stake here.

ANGER IS LIKE A CANCER! That once it get’s a foot hold it will spread and spread and spread; and it will contaminate   and DESTROY all it touch’s. AND LIKE CANCER! Anger can creep upon you and guide you to a place that you might not be able to return from. There is a PRICE TO PAY for every ACTION! And if you fail to realize that then you might find yourself going bankrupt. So calm yourself down and LISTEN more closely to what and HOW things are being said sometimes the SMALLEST detail can make the BIGGEST difference

AMERICA HAS NEVER STOPPED BEING GREAT! BUT SHE HAS STOPPED LISTENING!

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DEAR CONSERVATIVE

I just asked for a definition for this word and it stated “Resistant to change.” Wow! I thought that was a very powerful statement especially when it is NOT the natural order of things NOT TO CHANGE! I mean the season’s change, your body change’s the weather changes. So my question is why would someone be so AFRAID of change? We cannot stop it, all changes are not bad, and some things actually NEED to be changed. If year’s did not change we would not be in the year 2016 and we would not look forward to another year.

Do you not want things to get better? What type of changes do you want to stay the same and why? Do you think that by resisting something it will not change? How has that worked out for you lately? As I see it no matter how you want to keep the status quo at the level it is now eventfully it will change. If it had not changed with you then you would still be in the same RUT that you were when you were born in fact you would not grow! I know that I maybe making this more simple than you perceive it to be but to me it really is simple.

It saddens me to see your fear of change and I am so sorry that you feel this way for whatever reason. It is my sincerest hope that one day that will change. I know of so many culture’s that are today fighting and KILLING because they do not want to embrace CHANGE; the world cannot continue in this manner. So try not to FEAR change so much instead learn from it and enjoy the season that it is offering to you.

My Second Act

 

 

On every Friday night, the complications of life slowed down at the packed to capacity Kijiji’s Coffee Shop on Jefferson Street. Poetry turned the stressful juggling of business, family, health, dating and everyday survival into a magical place where words and feelings sprung uninhibited from the heart.  I was known as the ‘Queen of Nashville Poetry’.  I pictured myself becoming the next Maya Angelou and the event I hosted was an oasis to poets and poetry lovers to escape the daily grind.  But now the deafening roar inside me drowned everything out.

I was a single mom with one teenage child and not one but TWO jobs…just trying to keep ahead of the bill collector’s and food on the table.  I also had some other health challenges such as diabetes and hypertension but they were under control because I had a decent job with decent insurance and I went to the Doctor a lot!

In fact, in my mind, I was doing everything right considering what I had to work with.  I was going to the Doctor, getting my checkups, Paps and breast exams.  I SHOULD HAVE BEEN OK RIGHT?

BOY DID LIFE HAVE A BOMB TO DROP ON ME!

So you guessed it!  During this perfect storm of life’s work, complications, joys and sorrows,

ALONG COMES cervical cancer and it knocked me completely off my feet!  And put a spin on everything that I thought I had going on.  Cervical cancer trumped all of that!  At times it still seems so unreal that I would have a story like this to tell.  I am not saying that I thought myself too good to get cancer but I had SO MANY OTHER things going on in my life that surely CANCER would not become one of those things!

That first moment in the doctor’s office after the exam, when he told me to go back and wait in his office instead of going home like normal I knew something was wrong and I had the most sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach and as the time ticked by.  I waited for the doctor to come and talk to me.   My stomach and my mind began a battle with one another as to which could make me more afraid than I was.  My mind won!  I started imagining the most awful outcomes from this life changing visit.  Cancer was going to teach me a very valuable lesson that it did not care what other things I had going on in my life.  My first reaction on hearing I had Stage 2 Cervical Cancer was fear.  The fear was so deep and bone-chilling that it took my breath away.

I grew up in a home where it was believed that when you got the ‘BIG C’ your life was practically over and you were on your way out of this world!  My next reaction was anger!  BOY WAS I ANGRY!  I was angry with Man and God!  How could this happen to me when I had so much other stuff going on in my life, not to mention, my child that I was trying to raise into adulthood and I was going to be the next Maya!

BUT CANCER DID NOT CARE!

Give me a break!  My mind screamed! I did not have the time to go to 28 days of treatments and be off work as well as going into the hospital not once but twice, and having to stay three days each to have radioactive rods placed in my vagina and be cut off from those I loved.  I was not ready to be weak and sick.  I had so much to do, bill’s to be paid.  Life to be lived!

BUT CANCER DID NOT CARE!

I went through those 28 days of radiation as well as going into the hospital twice for three days each with a big lead shield placed between me and the world, all the while trying to put on a brave front for family, friends, and especially my daughter.  It was only the two of us against the world and this cancer!

By the grace of God, I made it.  I am now 15 years cervical cancer free!  Because of my journey and what I have gone through, I knew that my life would be changed forever.  I had to find ways to try and give back and to spare other women the difficult road that I found myself traveling.

So, I founded the Cervical Cancer Coalition of Tennessee to offer voice to those who hesitate to speak.  Also, I was told that cervical cancer has a higher motility rate in African American women which means we are more likely to DIE from this very curable illness. So on hearing this it really drove me to try and help women with information and support concerning cervical cancer.  I vowed to tell my story in as many venues as possible that have women attending. Such as Survivorville and their My 2nd act presentation. As well as the non-profit I founded to encourage women to take better care of themselves, and get their pap tests.  I still dream of the day when I am able to also help them with some the costs associated with the disease.  Cancer can be very expensive even with insurance.  When HPV came on the scene, and we found that cervical cancer can be transmitted from a sexually transmitted virus called the (Humanpaplomus Virus). Plus, the passing of the Affordable Care Act which provided fresh opportunities to make headway with HPV immunizations and cervical care, my message took on an even more urgent calling!

Has it been easy?  No!  The story and the struggle’s are still ongoing.  I find myself at 60 years of age with some challenging circumstances but I cannot let that stop me from spreading hope and encouragement.  It has not been easy but it has been rewarding.  I have made a difference in a lot of women’s lives that have reached out to me for help and understanding.

However, many women are still out there that need to know that cervical cancer IS NOT A DEATH SENTENCE!  They can survive and have full and happy lives.  I estimate that going out to health events and conventions such as Survivorville and My Second Act Story that I have touched over a thousand women or more and hopefully have given them hope and peace concerning their journey.  I have also started on a book called ( pause) “The Day My Vagina Tried to Kill me!”  This book is about my story and my cervical cancer journey.  Lord willing, it will be forthcoming soon with more food for hope.

In closing, I would like to leave you with one of my signature poems:

 

Thoughts of a Cancer Patient

Sitting in the doctor’s office

All alone.

I have so much to do! I just want

To go home!

How did I come to be at

This place?

I wonder can the other people

See the terror on my face

It seemed only a day ago that I had

No serious health concerns at

All, Then old Mr. Cancer decided to

Make a call! I am to young for this

I cried!

Now I am feeling like all hope in

Me has died!

But the doctor said they had caught

The cancer in time

And that with proper treatment I will be

Just fine.

The road will not be easy but I am so

Glad to be alive!

And I now wear an “S” on my chest

I will be ok, I will

SURVIVE!

 

The Golden Calf Phenomenon

I must say that we are living in interesting and frightening times; especially as it pertains to our political arena. It seems like the world has never seen such a battle between  political TITIANS! Such as what is occurring now. But, this in a way has been documented before and in a book that a lot of people are familiar with but may not knock the dust off very often. I am speaking about the Bible and the Old Testament in particular. I would like to re-introduce you to  the Book of EXODUS Chapter 32. ” When the people saw that Moses delayed to come down from the mountain, the people gathered themselves together to Aaron and said to him. “Up, make us gods who shall go before us. As for this Moses, the man who brought us up out of the land of Egypt, we do not know what has become of him,” So Aaron said to them, “Take off the rains of GOLD that are in the ears of yours wives, yours sons, and your daughters, and bring them to me. So all the people took off the rings of GOLD that were in their ears and brought the to Aaron. And he received the gold from their hand and fashioned it with a graving tool and made a GOLDEN CALF. Now you can read more of this if you wish but I thought it strangely similar to what is happening in our land today. We have people that are angry, afraid and seem to be wondering in a wilderness of despair and hopelessness. They are crying out to have something they can SEE to guide them to the PROMISED LAND. Sadly they seem to be more loss than ever just like the people from Exodus; they are caught in a “Perfect Storm” of FEAR, HATRED, and INTOLERANCE! They have loss hope so bad that they are willing to FOLLOW anyone that SEEMS to have a command of LOOKING STRONG! They are willing to FORGET the tragic PAST of other’s that have followed after such IDOL’S. I pray that the people WAKE UP! Before we go off the cleft and pass the point of no return.